Day 11: Where to begin?

Can you step back from your own mind and thus understand all things? Giving birth and nourishing, having without possessing, acting with no expectations, leading and not trying to control: this is the supreme virtue.

-- Lao Tzu

The Mind-Brain Connection: The connection. The prison. The spectra. The mania. "Anti-Jesus"?. Camus, absurdism, first ecstatic shock. Physical to mental devastation.

There is no deeper feeling of existential despair than what results from believing that you spent your life doing something that you felt humanity needed you to do, only to feel rejected by humanity at the end of it all. For then what is humanity? And what is life? And where can meaning come from?